over.whelmed

"You can do it. You're fully capable. You're what this house and this team need. We trust you and believe in you." I've heard this a dozen times. No one told me it would be this hard. No one told me that it would feel like trying to take a sip of water from a fire hose. No one told me that I would question everything I believe in. No one told me I would doubt myself. No one told me how lonely this place is. So I cry. And I pray. And then I repeat until the tears and the words dry up.